Dehiscence (2020)

by Wendy Eisenberg

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Will Stratton
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Will Stratton Even more powerful for its rawness (the sign of something truly special)
Gavin Hellyer
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Gavin Hellyer Yes, it's different and quite unusual in many ways, yet it's intimacy and loveliness is, nevertheless, hugely comforting. In all ways an enormously satisfying and impressive record. Favorite track: now proceed.
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xyz023 How much longer can you stay in place? Listening here quieted the impulses and lured me to my headphones for repeated listens, kept my butt firmly planted and desires sated. Favorite track: buy him a horn.
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Taylor Peters some records make what they're doing sound easy (even when it's deeply bananas) and this one of those record. effortlessly complicated and catchy!
bernard snowy
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bernard snowy Reminds me of 'The Glad Fact' by Dirty Projectors: spare guitar accompaniment, sweetly warped lyrics and melodies that zig when you expect them to zag. I would love to hear these songs given a "proper" recording treatment for a future album, but in the meantime this digital record is a great grab at the price 😈 Favorite track: versions of myself.
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Lars Gotrich Intimate and upside-down bedroom-pop songs made while in quarantine from the idiosyncratic guitarist.
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1.
limits 01:00
Knowing that I'm different now, they said "don't talk yet" I can still improve my life, make plans and stick to them Maybe that's the future we deserve, hard work that never ends I no longer trust the world, all lives have limits
2.
yellow hand 02:53
My baby sent a yellow hand, sent a yellow hand in my time of need, i found solace in greed not a good reason to pick up the phone though you think that you might wanna be alone your baby sent a yellow hand sent a funny pic your baby's gonna show you love even when you're sick don't have what you need? don't know how to proceed? probably a good time to go to the bridge here is the part where i know what to do no longer sweating that i'm better alone here is the part where i practice self care look at apartments again getting it started again feel broken hearted again for no reason you hope my baby sent a yellow hand sent a little kiss while our lifestyles shift i'll find solace in their glyphs
3.
You look at ways to improve your life knowing that the will to change has weakened now. you catch no rays, you'd rather radiate. your proximity to the defenseless will destroy them. one afternoon, one lucky day, it's senseless. one summer night, then a whole week, where'd you go? You found a world to take care of you, fallible but true. They're good hearted. You deserve that. But all worlds will end in their own future, hopefully not yet. Right now you're defenseless, please don't destroy this. Some afternoon your lucky day will last forever. What will you do, what did you do, where are you going?
4.
seventeen 2 02:40
safe bet old king, you know the softest place to die catch you downtown turners falls peeping 13 reasons why it's not your fault you don't know how to persist when you are not on earth it's not the way you thought it'd go when seventeen or yes it is, hello again you live so close to the bridge across the river catch me outside how bou dat access to an end its not your fault you can't tell if it is actually indeed your fault it's not a question with an end it's not a question with an end don't tell me death is not my friend
5.
hey, do you remember the bird we avoided in vermont, on the way back from our show? hey, do i seem better to you now that i live in the air, finally useless to you? I remember knowing you. I remember times were cold. What were we thinking back then? I remember loving my friend. I don't know exactly what I did wrong. I don't pretend it was nothing but it's not my nature to pick up on these things. Mm, mm. Hey, isn't it crazy? It's been three years since the last we've talked or looked at each other at all. Wow, that's a commitment, as long, as the bird flies in vermont.
6.
caught in between the self centered dream and the part of me that i can't work out right. the masters of scene they speak to a dream of a world where class isn't really a factor i muffle no screams i passively scheme for a shorter drive to our biggest city their neighborhoods gleam their money unclean is the way of art that's related to this buy him a horn and give him lessons, so he can sound like this
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patterns 04:20
and its changing its whole concept like a pattern newly visible you don't love her like you loved me it's your patten to destroy things while you save yourself i don't fault you if you love her, it's your pattern i could have seen something like this coming mother beauty, mother kindness has no pattern can't destroy things, only feeds itself now straightforward with the in crowd it's a pattern of belonging i can't recognize yet i would like to know by now the future i deserve and how i safely get there i would like to question how my brain suspects the worst and how i can avoid that does it matter who they're with? it matters who they know, it matters if i'm wrong. am i madder than before or do i know a truth belonging to the future and its changing its whole concept like a pattern in our nature newly visible you don't love her like you loved me it's your patten to destroy things while you save yourself i don't fault you if you love her, it's your pattern i could have seen something like this coming
9.
now proceed 04:00
is it true that i loved you, that you taught me to be still understand that i see you like a window sees the land (is it true that i loved you best) (is it true that i knew you best) (is it true that i heard you truthfully and always caring) behold our once great tower stands in memory staring across a universe we saw and didn't see look at me look at you though i love you and you taught me how to love (is it true that i loved you best) (is it true that i knew you best) (is it true that i heard you truthfully and always caring) understand that you hurt me when you say my life's too much (then say it say it to me now) (take credit for your actions now) (take credit for the part of me you hurt but kept a secret) behold our once great tower stands in memory look what you crushed, it's a universe you loved but didn't need now proceed
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little doggy 02:46
hello little one you know the things you're best at little doggy how close can you get to the real thing you live in a dream you live inside a bubble little doggy how close can you get how close can you be to the real thing i know it's not worth making changes on a weak foundation i can't imagine mine will ever be stable enough hellow little one is that what you do for self preservation or is that who you are are your choices your own there little doggy i know it's not worth making changes on a weak foundation i can't imagine mine will ever be stable enough i know that i'm not moving along the right road little doggy not easy to tell the birds of my life from gold canaries couldn't you see it from the porch of last year calling up like a famous banshee little doggy telling me that i'm just a jacked up amateur see those flashes of gold are just canaries i know the many discontents of my self preservation and i can't imagine acting any other way
11.
history time 03:20
i fall in love with an old song almost every day. is that enough to prove to you i love this? cos I do enough for a lifetime every single year, it doesn't add up with what i really love about you now i'm lonely and i'm cold and another year goes by now i'm hearing something old and i'm hoping it gets me high now i think i can see why i think i need this history time i don't believe in the future. every coming day isn't enough to prove to me it's possible but i can see enough to ask it for another way it won't be enough but neither can the things i love pro vide the things i need on time and another year goes by now i'm hearing something old and i'm hoping it gets me high now i think i can see why i think i need you history time it seems the flood will soon be coming music will survive it isn't enough to keep us living also but for now it's enough for our lifetime, the business dies with us that should be enough for you to know i value you much more
12.
twenty eight at last i'm an adult hear my solitude turning of the screw sense my growing power i'm watching you a turkish delight and half a cup of tea sounds no good to me the person i kiss now wants no part of me it's nice to feel free it's time to satisfy parts of me i let die lean into grief all alone again i go to the gym to carve a better me it's something to do i punish myself before they get a chance i'm virtuous too it's time to kill off the parts of me i don't like lean into grief, all alone again old yet innocent i don't love this period of my life broken hearted so i'm not hungry for just anything
13.
write basic 03:28
i can write basic straight from the heart i can write simple i can write smart never thought i'd be so excited to relax against the shoulder of the globe is it forever or a holding pattern never thought i'd be quite this ready for a break i hear the sound of something old i hear the sound of a new wAy i could be kinder i could be true i could be smarter i could be you never thought i'd be so excited to be gone from all the worry and the speed from all the gossip and the oleander never thought i'd be quite this ready to retract i hear the sound of renewed faith i hear the clinking of the keys how to react? i feel no pressure how to react to days of leisure, ahhhhh the casio and bass can wait writing will show you no escape there's no way out except to wait i can write basic i'll be sincere i can write simple i can be clear never thought i'd be so excited to relax against the crook of someone's arm is it forever or just momentary never thought i'd be quite this ready for a break i hear the sound of something old i hear the sound of something coming
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not so fast 02:26
forget how to speak the cat got my tongue again forgot how to lie if ever i will again not so fast give me control o'er the rest of my mind holy one prince of ideas i know, i promise i'm listening it's so hard to wait i'm trying to write about you we all of us hide if ever we were outstanding not so fast give me control o'er the rest of my life only one master of taste, i know, i promise i'll synthesize not unwilling to love am i why am i not uncertain that i'm feeling something nice for once fine for a second i'm fine for a moment longer aren't i? i'm earning this riff. i'm earning that florid chorus. straight out of a dream if ever i'd dream another wrote too fast give me control o'er the course of my dreams lonely one deacon of mess, i know, i promise i'll stay awake
15.
i want to be told that i'm the most beautiful for years of night i want to be old i want to be purposeful once in my life i heard i was but now i hear that i'm crazy, unwell, difficult but who spins it so that i'm the deficient one, it's not just me i want to be old so this can stop bothering me its ceaseless yell i heard myself making i hear it sounds desperate, not good, pitiful i know you think that time will be fair i don't trust you anymore i no longer think it's worth it i see you with your spotless record getting free patterned beautifully :) it's finally done, i'm now the most beautiful and in my night i don't need to be told a nice ending or anything once in my life i thought i was bad now i feel i'm good maybe half the time

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from two quarantines comes this new songs album. only up for a limited time. happy bandcamp day of waiving the revenue share. first songs since time machine, about some heavy and less heavy things. this batch is from the last six months, for the most part. breakups are political. we are breaking up with a tired system. please enjoy. i love you.

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released April 30, 2020

guitar, bass, desk drums, vocals, whistling, arrangement, composition, engineering, mixing, mastering, lyrics, riffs - wendy eisenberg
album art - luna galassini (lunagalassini.com)

this album couldn't have happened without russell fine lending me his house for a week over christmas last year. thank you to him and soundview for the restorative powers of holy solitude for creative healing.

if you have any questions, email me - wjeisenb@gmail.com

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wendy eisenberg is an improviser and songwriter who uses guitar, pedals, the tenor banjo, the computer, the synthesizer and the voice.

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